Just You

I do not want that guy
I do not want his friend
I do not want your brother
I do not want your friends
I do not want that boy
I do not want that man
I do not want him
I do not want any of them
I only want you

Could You Be Him

What if I took a chance for you
What if I jumped in
Would it mess everything up
Would you still want to be my friend
Would you lay with me all day
When it rained or snowed outside
Allow me to know all of you
Leaving nothing hidden inside
Would you tell me how beautiful I am
Take care of me when I was sick
Make me feel like I was the one girl in 3 billion
The only one you would pick
Could you see your entire life with me
See us old and gray
Fight for us over all else
Never let any one take you away
Would you ask me to marry you
Ask me to be your wife
Be willing to fall head over heels in love with me
To share a life
Would we travel the world together
Every experience brand new
Is this something you can picture with me
Something you would do

Let Me

I am not sure how I got lost and entangled in you, but it happened nonetheless. My life changed from the first instant I found out about you. Deep down I could feel it, but I wasn't sure what it was for. And now, eleven months later -- I am more at a loss of why it was you were to come into my life and change everything I ever thought about the world. The emotions I feel have changed in different ways, but not the most important one. That deep down feeling that I had-- has not only increased, but has revealed that you are who I want and in many ways. I feel that you were made for me. The parts that I don't understand are all the actions and reactions outside the realm of the self. They tease and consume me in utter frustration as to why they are chosen. Why you won't allow me to love you. Why you won't allow me in.

Too Focussed?

It's like staring at something -- and you are focussed so much on your thought -- you had no idea what was actually there. Then, with a sudden movement -- it's gone. And everything you thought you just saw is scattered about in a misconcepted confusion -- and then you think to yourself - am I that abstract that I see no detail in my life? --- and by the time I think I am figuring it out; the thing that should have been the biggest and most important sign -- was right there in front of me the whole time. But now it's gone forever . . . until the next to come. Maybe I will see it this time. But. . . it's nothing like the one I just missed - not nearly as fascinating. Not nearly as detailed.

My Greatest Love; Lost.

Closed; but completely full
Of the love that I will never have
Tight and compact
Locked away for someone else
Someone that is in your head
Someone you want
Instead of them wanting you
So many that would love you
But you want someone to love
Something out of reach
To fulfill the desires within
I wish you weren't searching
I wanted to be that for you
Something caught you sometime ago
And now you can't let go
My heart will ache for you
I will long for your love
But it will never come
Because your love is hidden
Drowning some where below
It's lost and can't be found
You have no where to go
Alone. But that's how you wanted it
Alone and confused
But that's how you sought it