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what is wrong with my beautiful heart
that I always let relationships fall apart
and bury myself under all these scars
not care about who any of you are
get caught up in another one to make a new scar
I don't even remember how I got this far
sit down and have another drink at the bar

look at my phone and remember who you were
alone in my head thoughts start to stir
bring back memories that are just a blur
drink so much my words start to slur
drunken thoughts create a perfect picture
questioning what it was that made me so sure

but all these pictures are faces with names
for some reason they keep seeming to change
same avenue but a different lane
just aching and waiting for that new pain
someone to mark me up so I'll never be the same
send him packing on the next crazy train
I'll find someone new to blame in my game
protect my heart and live in refrain
that way I can hate all of you in vain