Hello stranger-
Apparently you are even on my mind when I am sleeping. Last night I had a dream about you- It was a fun dream-unique and different - because we had a very different relationship than the one. . . or whatever we are calling this, we have now.
It was so intimate- the exact way, I always feel when I see you or talk to you. In the dream, you had just shaved, and being up close to you, and touching your face was so real, so natural-it really makes me miss you right now. That dream made me remember--so much. We have this unspoken connection, something secret and captivating-so real-but still under the surface- It is really fun to feel that, especially since I haven't found it with another person-maybe that is why it is hard for me to be "just friends." Something about you and our experiences together have always seemed rather dream-like, even in the bad parts- I wished that I could wake up and take back what had happened so that the dream would continue to create the happiness it was meant to bring.
I always loved the way you made me feel and even seeing you a few weeks ago- I felt it---that thing-whatever it is- nervousness-excitement, butterflies-who knows--but maybe..... you felt it too- maybe that is why you stopped talking to me...it's there and it is very real, and unfair for whomever is on the other end of your life.
I wish things were different than they are - I wish I could tell you more in-depth all the things I feel with you or that I have ever felt with you, but I can't because it wouldn't be fair to you--or her. . .maybe they would have no significance or meaning to you, but at least I would know that you knew.
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