Let Me

I am not sure how I got lost and entangled in you, but it happened nonetheless. My life changed from the first instant I found out about you. Deep down I could feel it, but I wasn't sure what it was for. And now, eleven months later -- I am more at a loss of why it was you were to come into my life and change everything I ever thought about the world. The emotions I feel have changed in different ways, but not the most important one. That deep down feeling that I had-- has not only increased, but has revealed that you are who I want and in many ways. I feel that you were made for me. The parts that I don't understand are all the actions and reactions outside the realm of the self. They tease and consume me in utter frustration as to why they are chosen. Why you won't allow me to love you. Why you won't allow me in.